baby bust

Last night before I went home from Alexandria, my mom got a phone call from my aunt Sal. It turned out that my cousin Kelly, her baby is not going to live. The brain is not wanting to form so the minute the baby girl is born, it will die because it won't know to breath and to swallow. When they did an ultrasound they thought it was just a little malfunction and she would have a missing body part so they went and did a deeper ultrasound and there was no brain. So lately (mostly today) I've been having people come and ask me if I'm OK or not and all I could say was "its a family thing". I only told one person because I've known her for about 2 years and she really does care about my depression and my family. All Danielle could do was have her jaw hit the table. its still hard to believe this is happening in my own family.